Second post of the day, my Chuck E. Cheeses. Talking about another day come and gone. K so, today.
I headed on over to Katie's in the early stages of the afternoon. Sometimes I wonder if while I'm out here, her house isn't actually my home. It sure seems like it sometimes. Yeah, and Nathan B. was there. And then Mallory came over. And we hung out playing the Sims2 at TEH MALLL!!! I mean, I finished TEH MALLL and then sent Katie's Sims over there. And we talked to Nathan C. on msn, who was being all "ESCHERK" which is his code word for "I already have plans for this evening." So did Anna. But Gavin and Andee promised to come by later! Yeah, and the 4 of us at Katie's house kind of migrated around. Called Matthew in Aberdeen. Oh man, talked to him about random things for like, the whole afternoon. Um. We managed to fit everyone into the loft and spooned. More most definately could have fit. We went back to the computer room later, ate more lasagna from the previous night, and then JON CALLED!!! And Mallory had been bothering me to call him the whole day and I was all "No. I dunwanna." Even though I totally did. It was just, the truth was, I kind of wanted to hang out with him like, without other people around for once. Anyway, so he asked if he, Anna and some random girl who turned out to be much fun named Carley could swing by. And we said of course, that we were planning to go get foodstuffs from Mac's. Oh, and you know what's scary? I've lost four more pounds. Without even realizing it. I checked Katie's scale today and was totally freaked out. And then Gavin and Andee arrived!!! And then Jon + Anna + Carley arrived! And we all walked to Mac's together.
Jon most definately held my hand. That was comforting. When we arrived, I realized I didn't want anything and I didn't have money. So all the huge group just kind of... hung around
. And some people bought coffee, slushies... etc. Then we left again! And some people wanted to go to Macdonald's! So they left us alone for a short while. And Gavin and I played where's Waldo. Oh yeah, Andee was gone at this point (already) to go hang with Mac. Then the people came back with Macdonald's. And Jon sat down beside me on this couch with a huge bag of food, looks at me, and says "I hate Macdonald's" and I reply with, "so do I. What are we doing to ourselves?" "I don't know *eats double quarter pounder.* THEN NATHAN C. RANDOMLY SHOWED UP! And it was a massive party in the basement! And Mallory and Nathan claimed the loft! Only they weren't there for long.
But people had to go home. And Nathan C. really badly wanted Macdonald's. So I hopped in the car with Jon and Mallory, and after we dropped Mallory off, we went to meet the other crew (of Nathan C. + Anna + Carley) in the Macdonald's parking lot. Only the door was like, just locked as soon as we arrived, and they were already inside. So Jon held me close because I was shivering and called Nathan on his cell phone and was all "I can see you..." and then they left the store and went through the drivethru. And Jon and I sat in his car and talked about random things. Like why his music was so dark. And skating. And other stuff. And I realized how much I like talking to him. And when he dropped me off at my house I kissed him goodbye and that was all, but it was still extremely awesome. It kind of left my wanting more for next time! Like I don't have to get makey-outty ALL the time...
I finally have it figured out. I don't WANT to break up with him. Believe it or not, I kinda sorta really LIKE him. Like really, really.The problem still remains that I have to go. I don't want to. I want to go like, get coffee with him a million times and learn everything about him and tell him everything about me. Frick, I want to be his GIRLFRIEND. I think he feels the same way about me. But getting all these feelings into the situation is just going to make things worse on that inevitable day that I have to leave. Actually, he's going to be in Calgary for a skating competition the day before I leave. So he'll be gone before me! *sighs* What do I do? I've never felt this way before. This has never happened. Will a long distance relationship work? Will he want to date other people? Actually, one thing I've been thinking about for a long time is that with all his skating and schooling, would he even have time for a girlfriend in town? AND THAT COULD BE THE ONE THING THAT COULD MAKE IT WORK. The fact that he has no time for anything else
. Aww. I hope he doesn't break it off. I've decided I'm not going to. I don't want him to be just a fling. I want... relationship stuff. And another plus, with him being in another province, my mom will never have to know. As long as Christina doesn't blab to the wrong people (she's already told a lot... I knew I should never have said anything).
Carolyn, you were right. I know this is what I want. What would break my heart into a million tiny little pieces is if he doesn't want the same thing. But really, I just want to try. If it doesn't work, it doesn't work, but people who don't try are LOSERS.
And as for that other guy I like. Well, maybe our time will come someday. For now, I want to see where this might go. But when I get back to school next Monday, I'm gonna try my damndest to give him a big hug because I'm so glad he's my friend!!! AND NOW I'M CRYING! I LOVE MY LIFE AND EVERYONE IN IT!
Wish I had as much luck as you in le lurve category. *sigh* It kinda sucks that I am moving too. Like, If I DID get a boyfriend here before I moved *crosses fingers* it would kinda work because I would be over here ALL THE TIME!! Missing you peoples and everything. Damn. I hate my life right now. 
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